Last night, Garrett and I were up late talking about work. I was on a roll talking about one of my work days this week. Not a great one. It's not like it was a horrible day where the worst scenarios were coming to me--I just continually felt like I was messing up on things, couldn't quite catch up on everything and I felt like I was asking so many questions--to the point where it was becoming annoying to others. Normally, I feel no shame in asking many questions because that is how I learn, but on a night like that night I just felt like a huge burden. I wanted to cry during my whole 12 hour shift. To top it off, I don't really feel like I have friends for support at this particular work place yet.
At the end of our conversation, I was realizing that this particular night is just going to be one building block of my work experience. I'm sure there are going to be many great shifts ahead, and I also know there will be many terrible shifts ahead (kind of scary to think about what those terrible shifts will bring). I was telling Garrett that I sometimes wish I could fast-forward five years and automatically have five years of working experience behind me so that I could say I'm experienced without going through the horrible experiences :). Sometimes I really do think that, especially on a night like the other night. I'm sure experience would have made that night a piece of cake for me. At the same time, I'm sure I wouldn't feel proud of my "work experience" if I hadn't actually gone through the cruddy learning process.
Mostly, I love my job. I really do. I have the job that I have always wanted, and it brings me so much satisfaction. For that, I need to be thankful. Whining and complaining about certain shifts just makes me realize in the end how much I have to be thankful for and how much I should appreciate these experiences because they will only make me better at what I do.
Not really sure where I'm going with this, but I just wanted to get it out there.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Sunday Afternoon
Today was a beautiful day, so we thought we would go to the lake and walk around.
So lovely!
So lovely!
Monday, February 08, 2010
Sisters
Today I was reading this, and I thought about these ladies.
I have been thinking about how wonderful life is with my sisters. They have truly been one of the greatest blessings in my life. Despite the fact that they have been "angels" in my life on several occasions, they are also my best friends. I can't imagine my life without them.
I just want to say thank you. Thank you to Susan and Becca who helped me get through my last semester of school with little newborn Grayson. Thank you for watching him without any question. I appreciated your help so so so much. And thank you for inviting me to dinner and bringing me dinner when we were scraping for pennies. And thank you for hanging out with me on the days that I was bored at home with nothing to do.
And thank you to Liz. Oh Liz, what would I do without you? I appreciate your help with Grayson too--with this new job life has been so crazy, and you have been right beside me willing to help when you can. And thank you for always being a friend and laughing at my ridiculousness.
I feel like I have had so much help and not helped each of you out enough. So I propose this. Becca, Susan and Liz, let me watch your kids one night so you and your sweet husbands can have a night out. Call me and we'll set it up!
I have been thinking about how wonderful life is with my sisters. They have truly been one of the greatest blessings in my life. Despite the fact that they have been "angels" in my life on several occasions, they are also my best friends. I can't imagine my life without them.
I just want to say thank you. Thank you to Susan and Becca who helped me get through my last semester of school with little newborn Grayson. Thank you for watching him without any question. I appreciated your help so so so much. And thank you for inviting me to dinner and bringing me dinner when we were scraping for pennies. And thank you for hanging out with me on the days that I was bored at home with nothing to do.
And thank you to Liz. Oh Liz, what would I do without you? I appreciate your help with Grayson too--with this new job life has been so crazy, and you have been right beside me willing to help when you can. And thank you for always being a friend and laughing at my ridiculousness.
I feel like I have had so much help and not helped each of you out enough. So I propose this. Becca, Susan and Liz, let me watch your kids one night so you and your sweet husbands can have a night out. Call me and we'll set it up!
Friday, February 05, 2010
This Week
The past two weeks have been pretty crazy for me. I started my orientation at Utah Valley Regional Medical Center last week. I have to work at three different hospitals for my job, and I have to be oriented at each place. Utah Valley was the last place I needed to go, and now I am done orienting there--done orienting completely and I am so relieved.
Last week I had to orient to the night shift. I worked Tuesday, Thursday and Friday night. Then I had to orient to days this week and work Sunday, Monday and Thursday. The transition was killer. I came home Saturday morning last week and slept until about 3:30 in the afternoon. When it came time to go to bed that night, I couldn't go to bed of course. So I ended up laying in bed awake most of the night and had to get up to go to work the next morning. I was exhausted. I worked all day and then came home to pretty much go to bed and wake up and go right back to work.
I was so excited for Tuesday to come because I didn't have to go to work, but I was dreading it at the same time because I had to get my wisdom teeth out. I went to the dentists office and we got started. They were just going to give me local anesthetic and I initially thought I could handle it without the gas to help me relax. As getting my wisdom teeth yanked out came closer, I decided I wanted the gas. Wow. I love that stuff. During the extraction I felt like I was totally asleep but completely awake at the same time. I could feel my dentist yanking around, and I didn't care one bit. On one side, my wisdom teeth came out easy. The other side was a bit more extensive than they thought it would be. I guess I have curved canals and it made it really difficult. My dentist said it was the hardest extraction he's done in years. He was able to get the bottom one (on the right side) out completely, but the upper one on the same side didn't come all the way. He had to leave pieces of my roots in because they were too close to my sinuses and he didn't want to go there. Apparently they will either dissolve or my body will extract them sometime...? He sent me home with pain killers and antibiotics.
Wednesday I was SO swollen and SO sore. I would post pictures, but it is completely embarrassing. And Thursday...I had to work the night shift. I made it until about 3 o'clock in the morning, and then I came home. It was really slow and I wasn't doing anything anyways. Everyone said I should go and just rest my mouth. I agreed.
So...I actually got a little more sleep last night than I planned.
I have a week off now and I'm so so so so glad. I feel like I've lived at work this week and haven't been able to spend time with my family. Don't have any plans yet this week, but I'm sure it will be bliss.
And here are some pictures from Christmas and then some...
Last week I had to orient to the night shift. I worked Tuesday, Thursday and Friday night. Then I had to orient to days this week and work Sunday, Monday and Thursday. The transition was killer. I came home Saturday morning last week and slept until about 3:30 in the afternoon. When it came time to go to bed that night, I couldn't go to bed of course. So I ended up laying in bed awake most of the night and had to get up to go to work the next morning. I was exhausted. I worked all day and then came home to pretty much go to bed and wake up and go right back to work.
I was so excited for Tuesday to come because I didn't have to go to work, but I was dreading it at the same time because I had to get my wisdom teeth out. I went to the dentists office and we got started. They were just going to give me local anesthetic and I initially thought I could handle it without the gas to help me relax. As getting my wisdom teeth yanked out came closer, I decided I wanted the gas. Wow. I love that stuff. During the extraction I felt like I was totally asleep but completely awake at the same time. I could feel my dentist yanking around, and I didn't care one bit. On one side, my wisdom teeth came out easy. The other side was a bit more extensive than they thought it would be. I guess I have curved canals and it made it really difficult. My dentist said it was the hardest extraction he's done in years. He was able to get the bottom one (on the right side) out completely, but the upper one on the same side didn't come all the way. He had to leave pieces of my roots in because they were too close to my sinuses and he didn't want to go there. Apparently they will either dissolve or my body will extract them sometime...? He sent me home with pain killers and antibiotics.
Wednesday I was SO swollen and SO sore. I would post pictures, but it is completely embarrassing. And Thursday...I had to work the night shift. I made it until about 3 o'clock in the morning, and then I came home. It was really slow and I wasn't doing anything anyways. Everyone said I should go and just rest my mouth. I agreed.
So...I actually got a little more sleep last night than I planned.
I have a week off now and I'm so so so so glad. I feel like I've lived at work this week and haven't been able to spend time with my family. Don't have any plans yet this week, but I'm sure it will be bliss.
And here are some pictures from Christmas and then some...
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